Solitude changed to kindness, generosity 

Solitude changed to kindness, generosity 

There’s an old saying, “Don’t force yourself to fit in where you don’t belong.” This quote could mean multiple things, but at first glance, it means you shouldn’t limit yourself to friends who are similar to you. You should never allow anyone to change you. And never stop believing in yourself, right?

Back in grade school, I didn’t have this mindset. I would cling to anyone who had a second to talk to me. I was blind to the truth and thought everyone who would say a word to me was my friend. Which made me seem bizarre.

When I was younger, I acted dumb and rambunctious, which affected my better judgment. I did a lot of things that made me seem unlikeable to my peers. It got to a point where my presence was seen as an annoyance. The truth was, back then I would do almost anything for attention. I just wanted to express myself to others. I was ignored by my peers, I was seen as a nuisance, an odd kid who would never fit in. I had some friends but they made no effort to understand me. 

It got to a point where I would do foolish or strange things to get the attention of others. I wasn’t on good terms with other students, which meant I didn’t have many friends. This brought me to a state of solitude since people often don’t like someone who isn’t akin to themselves.

This all changed once I understood what true amity felt like. Through a mutual friend, I came in contact with someone I would learn to trust for the rest of my life. He didn’t care how weird or annoying I was. He stood beside me even in the darkest of times.

I want to let people know that there is always going to be someone who will accept you and love you for who you are no matter how annoying or strange you are.  The people you trust are the people you become. My friend taught me what compassion and kindness are through his actions. My solitude has changed into kindness and generosity. 

Living life without a friend to help you grow isn’t living life at all.

Everyone has to start somewhere. Who knows where or how far I can go from here?

The original podcast version of this can be heard here.